For the past few days I have been looking a lot at my life over the past year. Now I don't know if most people do this but I've had some circumstances make me look at my past and figure out exactly what has been and what has become. I have had a lot of changes in my life...some good...some bad but changes none the less.
I graduate on Saturday with my master's degree in social work, something I have been working very hard on for the past few years and needless to say I'm excited about this but there is also an element of sadness. My grandfather passed away this past June and to say we were close is an understatement. He meant more to me than most people in this world ever have and probably ever will. I would have loved nothing more than for him to be able to be there at my graduation.
I have also had a lot of changes in my friendship/relationship department. "A" and I have become a lot closer lately and we are helping each other through some tough times and I think we are going to be better off for it. I told my grandmother last night that I am out of my element when it comes to this relationship because I have never had someone that I share so many values and ideas with. He also treats me better than anyone I have been with in years. I actually feel I can trust him and that he respects me. For me this a big big thing. Thanks to him, I'm also going to go back to church, which is something I haven't done in a long time...probably too long. As far as friendships, to quote my friend SG..."and in the end you always go back to the people who were there for you from the beginning" has been a very true statement for me. I have learned this year that people you thought were your friends will stab you in the back in a heart beat and then will try and be your friend again. I have learned that in the end all people show their true colors. I have learned that those that have been there for you from the beginning will always stay by your side. I have learned that you should trust your gut instinct when it tells you that you shouldn't trust someone. I believe that you should question what you see and never trust just what you hear.
This past year has brought a lot of changes for me and I have learned (usually the hard way) from every single one of them. I am trying hard not to put a wall up against the world but there are times that I think it would be better and easier that way. Thanks God "A" "SG" and "J" keep my sane most of the time. Without people like them and my family in my life I have no idea where I would be. Even though they will probably never read this I would like to thank them for being part of my life.
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Everyone has to have a point of reflection in their lives. I guess that is what separates us from the animals in life. I am sorry to hear about your grandfather. Perhaps he was there with you, and to that you may never know. But perhaps you need to assume with a little bit of faith that he was.
Congratulations on your master’s degree. When I was getting my degree I know that family, friends, and my wife sacrificed and dealt with a lot to support me. Due to my profession they still do every day. Enjoy and savor your accomplishment. It sounds to me you more than earned it.
I think your experience with friendships is typical for most of us in this world. True friends are hard to come by in this world, and even harder to keep in your life. All I can say is learn from every experience possible, and always learn from your past.
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